I think I'm just about done

I think I'm just about done being sorry

for wanting more than I get

for demanding less than I deserve

for being uncomfortable with the feeling of knowing I need more.

I think I'm over that feeling --

That maybe-I-shouldn't-rock-the-boat feeling

the one that worries about you getting wet

but ignores the nagging notion that I should just jump ship.

I'm pretty sure I'm through

rationalizing

excusing

explaining

legitimizing

and sculpting beautiful images from the bullshit

and calling it art.

And as much as there is a piece of me that wants you to return the feelings I've sent your way...

I think I'm pretty much finished waiting

for you.

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Yeah....it was that kind of weekend.


~TSC~